I just joined this site after one of my best friends demanded me to so... here I am. i had no idea that anything like this existed. I haven't come out of the closet to anyone save for one friend. I hope this place isn't home to flamers or trolls. I'm 19 and i'm very confused about my sexuality... i check out some men, specific ones, even in public. I can start up conversation with them a lot easier than women. My last girlfriend of 7 years cheated on me in December I feel like I have no hope of having a companion. I have a friend of mine that means the world to me, Ellie, and I've always liked her and told her once drunk and she said the same (she was sober). I've known Ellie for over 10 years now and I always wanted her to be my lifelong companion. See, i'm weird, I don't want a "boyfriend" or "girlfriend" i want someone that shares the same feelings and that i love. it's hard to listen when she says she went out with a guy and had sex on the fifth date etc. I don't know what to do with my life either. I want to travel the world and see the river Siene river, Machu Picchu, Borobudur and i want a companion as said above to share it with. I'm writing a book about my life as events happen and when i pass away i'm having it published for people of all races, creeds and *sexuality* so that people can see the horrible child and teenagehood i had and the rest of my life and /b/have hope, happiness and a fact that Life. Gets. better./b/ But only gets better if you work for it. Nothing is free in this world and so is coming out of the closet in some groups... With deepest sympathy, Dean
Arfff Heyyy!! Welcome to EC =) Its a very supportive community here and since you mention Borobudur, currently i happened to be live less than 1 hour drive from there (also 2 hours from Prambanan if you know it). You were right tho, view from above is magnificent anyway Have a good day Enjoy the community
Hi Dean... Welcome to EC. Firstly, you are not weird at all. This is a brilliant, well considered and thoughtful post you've put up. I'm certainly not going to judge you, except that you sound like an amazing and very honest person. People like you, I have massive respect for. No-one here will judge you here nagatively, I promise. EC certainly isn't home to flamers or trolls. Everyone here is so lovely, kind and reassuring. I know you will feel comfortable here and among friends. There is nothing wrong, or strange about wanting someone that shares the same feelings you do, and that you love, rather than a specific "boyfriend" or "girlfriend". You are 19 years of age and you're very confused about your sexuality. A lot of people here feel that way, people of all ages. I feel that way myself. As you discover and understand yourself more, your confusion will diminish. You're writing a book about your life as events happen I'm sure, and know, it will be a wonderful piece of writing. Strangely enough, I've been trying to do something similar actually. As I say, you come across as an amazing and very honest person, and I would like to send you a friend request. I hope this is alright. (*hug*)
Hey RisusSandonicus, welcome to EC! We on the staff work very hard to prevent flamers or trolls from breaking in, you will feel safe and welcome here, I guarantee it! Enjoy your time with us, it could be for a week or for several years. In either case, most of those who join are richer for the experience.
Hi..... It's a pleasure. Greatwhale is right.... you will feel safe and welcome. Everyone is smashing here and so kind. The staff do a brilliant job, and I personally, feel honoured to be here. Do enjoy your time here. It's a wonderful place. :thewave:
