Hello all! I'm new to this site. It seems like a great place to express concerns/fears/questions/excitement/etc! A little about my story...I'm a 27 year old female, and growing up I never really questioned my sexuality, although looking back I don't know how i didn't. I think at most points in my life there was a girl friend of mine who I probably had quite a bit of a crush on, and my first kiss was one of my girl friends back in 3rd grade (while "practicing" how to kiss boys on eachother). It's not at all that I was against being gay or anything, I have a few gay members in my family and multiple friends throughout high school/college...somehow I just never realized I may be as well. I would even only ever watch girl/girl porn...and yet still never really questtioned my own identity. Just assumed all of this was common amongst heterosexual girls I guess. Anyways - just within the last few years I started to really understand that I am much more attracted to women than men. Three years ago I started doing online dating and went on a few dates with girls. I really enjoyed this and felt like I was truely being myself...none of these really turned into a relationship though. One girl and I would just be kind of hookup-buddies, and there was another girl who I really clicked with, however at the time unfortunately we both lived at home so didn't really have anywhere to go to be alone or hang out after dates. Then I very suddenly met a guy, and we really clicked (as with all my other previously relationships with guys) and we've been dating now for 2.5 years. I really have enjoyed all my relationships with men. I don't know if it's just that I really like the company of a man, or its that I just haven't been in a relationship with a woman yet to compare. Anyways - the relationship I'm in now I know won't last forever...our situation is a bit funny but we're both living abroad right now and when we return to the states we're going to different places...so we know it's going to end at that point. I just find myself very anxiously waiting for that so that I can, hopefully...and finally, legitamately date a girl. I've hinted before to my current partner that I'm bisexual, but I don't know if he understands that I truely want to be with a woman asap once we split. I don't know if this is something I should let him know...I don't want him to feel like I've been lying to him once it all comes out. Also - any advice for people who are new to LGBT community later in life? Somehow I feel like I'll almost be judged by some girls for not having realized this sooner...or having "lied" to myself for so long. Hopefull that's not the case... I also find myself very concerned with WHERE in the states I move to...I find myself googling "LGBT life" or "lesbian night life" in different cities to be sure wherever I end up there will be a decent sized community. Is that silly? haha Sorry this is so long! Any advice would be appreciated though
Hey, i've kind of went through the same situation. i Had only dated guys until about two years ago. (i'm 27 now). i realised that i was also attracted to women and ended up trying online dating; on which i met my lovely girlfriend i google the hell out of pretty much everything to, haha. As for being judged; my partner was in the same boat as me so i guess i was lucky in that sense. As long as your happy it shouldn't matter what other people think, right? (i keep telling myself this ) i don't think i actually provided any good advice haha, but here to talk if you need to Good luck!
