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pendrin2020 is finally accepting.

Discussion in 'The Welcome Lounge' started by Pendrin2020, Dec 10, 2008.

  1. Pendrin2020

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    IIII''MMMMMMMM BI! YAY! i CAN SAY IT WITHOUT FEELING ASHAMED! i'M NOT ATTACHING DISCLAIMERS ANYMORE! I CAN LOOK AT A GUY WITHOUT FEELING LIKE IT'S WRONG. i CAN LOOK AT A GIRL AND FEEL THE SAME WAY. I'M NOT AFRAID OF BEING SEXUAL ANYMORE YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!

    Sorry, I just logged on for the first time like a week ago and about two days later, I started feeling different. I've worked so hard to accept everything else about me. This was the final piece of the puzzle. It's OK to be sexual. It's OK to be me. I just had to find people with the same problems and get out of the isolation I'm in. (not much of an alternative scene in my small town).

    Just wanted to share this with you. everything I had regarding my sexuality up to this point was theory. I knew I liked both but was too ashamed to do anything outside of one-night-stands with shady characters that made me feel like a total slut.

    I never got to experience, the meat and potatoes of being me. Don't get me wrong, I was really screwed up before i got sober. And after that I was reasonably happy, but now I'm jumping up and down like a school girl and I don't bloody care!

    Yeeeeehaaaaaaw, It's time to learn who I am....again.

    Thank you God.
     
  2. Derek the Wolf

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    Congratulations! Glad to hear it!
     
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    Good for you!

    *gives you a cookie*
     
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    That's fantastic, congratulations!
     
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    Congrats in accepting yourself! It's very liberating!! I found that once I accepted myself I was a lot happier. I am the happiest I have been in years. I do not get sick to myself when I say I am gay. Also I don't hate myself for looking at guys. I am quite enjoying it :slight_smile:. I feel like I can move forward in my life and do not have to be alone anymore. Heck I am starting to date a bit. I went on a date a couple of nights ago and tonight the guy called me and asked me out again. :grin:
     
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    yay!
    also i would like insert an lol
    because i have never seen anyone type a "yeehaaaw"
    :]
     
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    Pendrin, my man, I could not be happier for you!

    I know that for me, once I resolved my own internal homophobia and unconditionally loved and accepted myself, I gained the ability to not be concerned with what others thought of me. I am jumping up and down w/ you brother!

    Tim
     
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    Congratulations on accepting yourself!
     
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    I think it's especially hard for someone who's bi to do that. I HAVE TO SAY BI people SUFFERS THE MOST from confusion! =)

    so kudos! and godspeed!
     
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    Congrats my friend! You've gotten over a major hurtle! Welcome to the party! :grin:

    PS, I've also never seen anyone type yeehaw... Well now I've done it haven't I?
     
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    Now comes the hurdle of finding a weekly support group for lgbt's south of the bible belt. Gah! Can't talk about this at my other support groups, where do I go? the local college has a more or less dead gay/straight alliance, and most of the listings on google are for "dating".

    Guess I'll have to start one. does anyone know of anything in the nashville area?
     
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    Are there any PFLAG groups in your area?
     
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    well done pendrin :grin: that's awesome

    er what's PFLAG? I keep seeing it, dunno what it means :S
     
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    ok cheers :slight_smile:
     
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    congrats....great step forward.
     
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    Hi there! I know we've already exchanged PMs but I thought I'd officially welcome you here!
     
  19. Psychedelic Bookmarks

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    Awesome! I know I've come to this a lil late, but I figure you're probably still on a high about it. I'm so glad that you've started to accept yourself, it's the best thing in the world! (*hug*)
     
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    Woot! Go You!