Hi, I'm new and would really love some advice.

Hi, I'm 16 years old and male. I feel really uncomfortable saying this but here's my story and I hope someone can give me some advice, I would really appreciate it!

I would feel more comfortable and at ease in my life if I could wear women's clothing, like dresses, corsets and skirts. Having an operation to become a female and have sex with men arouses me and I would feel right in my life doing this. However I am afraid to tell anyone as if I was to announce this to anyone, word would spread and I would be seen as differently and not necessarily in a good way. I'm worried that my parents won't understand and my friends will leave if I ever announce my true feelings. This is why I feel slightly trapped. However I am also comfortable being a male as I am right now, and would be fairly happy living the rest of my life like this, though I would live my life wondering what could have been. Even if I was not to have an operation, I would be perfectly be happy with being non-binary, so dressing up as both a man and a woman and having both gay and straight sexual experiences. I haven't necessarily known from an early age that I was like this but when I was younger I did wear dresses on occasion as a joke, but now, at 16 years of age, I look back on those memories quite fondly - thinking that that is what I want to be.
I would genuinely be interested, going back to my earlier point, in having female anatomy as opposed to a male genetalia, as I would feel better during sex if I was being penetrated rather than doing the penetrating. I am not speaking from experience though as I have not yet had sex with either gender, so maybe my opinions will change when the time comes, however right now I feel pretty set in my ways.

 

Thank you! Best of luck to you as well

---------- Post added 25th Jun 2015 at 01:34 PM ----------

Thank you! I didn't really know how to describe myself but that does sound right