Hi there! I just found this site while looking up advice on masturbation for ftm/dysphoric individuals. Please call me either Bastion or Eden, I use they/them and he/him pronouns. I currently identify as demiboy and I am pre everything. I just came out recently to my family and partner, things have been very positive, it's mainly been my own discomfort and self hate that has troubled me. I recently started going to gender therapy and that has been really helpful, I am really excited and nervous to maybe start hormone therapy/get top surgery. I really wish I could be in a body that I feel comfortable with, it's been extremely difficult because I am a very sexual person so I end up resorting to watching porn instead of being with my partner because I feel soooo disgusted and uncomfortable with myself. I have a history of severe depression, anxiety and self harm. I am on anti depressents right now and that has helped me enough not to fall into a pit. I also started birth control in hopes that it will ease my dysphoria a little. I'm hoping to get advice from other people who may be going through similar things and connect with others. Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a lovely day!
(*hug*)Welcome to EC ! I'm new here myself and I can vouch as a noob that this is a supportive community with many people who can help you.
Hi and welcome, I can relate to the "very sexual person (with dysphoria)" part, and just lots in you wrote above. I'll just drop you a wall message! Glad to have you here.