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Hello! I'm new here, and excited to join this community

Discussion in 'The Welcome Lounge' started by RangerofEriador, Jul 10, 2015.

  1. RangerofEriador

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    I am a 17 year old girl from Michigan's Upper Peninsula. I am a giant nerd--I absolutely am obsessed with J.R.R. Tolkien's Arda Legendarium--I even am learning Sindarin (elvish) and have read the Silmarillion five times! I also like Doctor Who and Star Wars and I love learning about anthropology, archaeology, sociology, history, philology, and psychology! I love writing, both fiction and non fiction. Actually if I could spend 8 or 9 hours a day writing, outlining and researching this would probably be all I would ever do--but alas . . . other things must come first.
    I was born a boy but I have always known I was a girl. I have identified myself as female my entire life, and wished the rest of the world would do so too. I wish the rest of the world would every minute of every day . . . A lot of people struggle to find their identity . . .I know exactly what my identity is, but I feel trapped . . . When people call me by my birth name my first reaction is one of 'who is that?' It just seems foreign . . . I respond to it, but it takes great effort, and it hurts to hear it . . . it sounds like silverware being scraped against china plates . . . a loud, painful screech that sets me on edge. When I see a photo of myself, or look in a mirror it hurts . . . I feel imprisoned in the wrong body. I was born in the wrong body . . . When I see a photo I'm in, it increases this feeling . . . my heart wants to explode into a million pieces . . I feel a pain in my chest . . . Many people struggle to find their identity . . .
    I know my identity . . . I am a nerdy, Christian, bisexual, 17 year old girl from Upper Michigan and despite what people tell me my name is Maya, not that other name they call me.
    I know who I am, but I am stuck in the wrong body . . . Only my three closest friends Kim and Micaela and Ciara understand . . . they accept me as a girl . . . they understand that I’m really a girl—they call me Maya, they refer to me with female pronouns, and talk to me about subjects that no girl would ever say to a boy . . . as far as there concerned me being a girl is the only context they have ever known me in . . .
    Also on an MMO I play I have friends who only know me in the context of being female and that is the only context they will ever know me in . . . it is the most freeing thing ever . . . Of my family only my Mom and Sister know that I am a girl . . . my sisters fiance does two . . . these are the only six people who know.

    I am a hyper-devout Christian, but unlike most Christians I have never thought that the fact that I'm bisexual was a sin, nor have I thought that it was wrong that I'm a girl. I love reading the Bible, and love studying Christian theology and church history, and basically anything involving Christianity.

    My dream job is to be a journalist--specifically a foreign correspondent. This would make use of my love of learning about world culture, and my love of research and my writing skills.

    In any case I am going to end this introduction to myself here, because I will probably get to know you guys better over time! It is a pleasure to join this community.

    Novaer a galu! (Sindarin/Elvish for talk to you later and and have a good day)
     
  2. Gratitude

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    Welcome to EC, Maya! Nice to meet you! :slight_smile:
     
  3. RangerofEriador

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    Thanks! It is nice to meet you too!
     
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    Welcome to EC Maya and thanks for the introduction. Join in, ask for advice or support, if you need it. Good to have you on board.
     
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