Hello all you lovely people on here!! I am Darren, new to this page so hi:smilewave Its fantastic to actually find a forum like this to be able to talk to great people!! To be honest I am basically here wondering if there is anyone here who can help me figure out who I am! I am a straight man who is now having a huge sexual questioning experiencing realising that I am so ridiculously aroused by watching transexual porn! I can't stop dreaming about it and how I would love it! So Ive always been this straight guy who was just one of the lads and never had a problem with girls. Ive always got on well with girls and my sexuality was never in doubt. I would always comfortable with my sexuality and be able to say 'oh yeah hes good looking' and would see guys naked in the shower and it never did anything for me. I was women obsessed and I used to watch lesbian porn because the noise of a man groaning would make me lose my erection... However, I have quite poorly recently and have been bedbound for quite a while. Idle hands and everything I ended up watching porn which one day led me to a video of a transexual having sex with a woman. This got me very aroused and eventually led me to watching two transexuals having sex with each other and it blew my mind! I was head over heels in love with it straight away, everything about it appealed to me,the anal licking, anal sex and even the idea of having a penis in my mouth turned me on in ways that normal sexual thoughts never had before! (I'm sorry if this is too explicit). So this lead me thinking that maybe I may actually be gay so I watched some gay videos but alas again I as not aroused! I am really confused by all of this now but am very excited by all of this at the same time! I am not sleeping at nights wondering who I am, am i straight or gay, am I on the way to becoming transexual?!! I am feeling terribly lost and alone now dealing with this and trying to figure this all out!! :icon_sad: But where does this leave me in the sexual category or straight, lesbian, bi, trans etc.?? Any help/advise would be greatfully appreciated!!
Hi Darren... Welcome along. Just see how you feel over a period of time. Have faith in yourself, try not to speculate, but don't be afraid to explore how you feel. This is a massive step for anyone to take. It took me a long time to accept who I am, and I'm now proud of who I am. I am really confused by all of this now but am very excited by all of this at the same time! Do you know what? This is exactly how I feel.
Welcome here ^^ I hope you will find the answers to your questions ^^ Well, actually, I'm sure you will, the only question is when
