Hi there (wow, this was hard)

Hi Everyone,

Gosh it was hard to open this thread... but i feel like i've lurked around enough and i just really need to come out of my closet and open up to find some suport and advice.
I'm a 29 year old girl living in LA where i started realizing that - after being straight all my life - i might just be very bi.

I realized i was crushing on girl after girl and started asking myself questions. Then a month ago i fell really hard for the most beautiful woman, who told me she was gay. And i'm scared out of my mind to make a move on her or to even fantasize about being with her... even though when i think about being in a relationship with her i get butterflies (ok, i'm not even sure whether she likes me or not...).

So, yeah. I'm here to talk, read your stories, find confort and guidance.
Hope to meet you all soon.

 

Thanks everyone. It's so great to receive such a warm welcome.
I just wanted to add that in terms of being out, I'm very out with all of my LA friends and most of my friends in general - who have all been very supportive (besides the classic question "really? Are you sure it's not just you being curious/a phase? But how do you know for sure if you've never tried it?" Hm no guys, I'm crushing hard on this girl, I think I know!). My mom kind of knows, we've had the "I could fall in love with a woman" conversation and she's fine with it, however I don't have the courage to talk about it with my dad and the rest of the family who are vary conservative and big Catholics. I think I'll confront that when and if I'll be in a relationship with a girl.

 

It's great to read this. I think i'm becoming comfortable with it, i just fear what that means and i hate that we're in 2015 and we still have to have troubles accepting that we might be gay/bisexual/whatever sexual orientation other than boy-meets-girl-makes a family

Thanks everyome for such a great welcome!