I just joined the site today so here's my obligatory introduction: I'm 27 and I've struggled the majority of my life with my sexuality. Over the past two years, I finally started to accept who I am and that I am attracted to girls and guys. I came out to a few of my closest friends and to my mother during this time. I come from a religious family so telling my mom was one of the hardest things I've ever done. She took the news amazingly well, thankfully. I want to tell my dad, but I'm worried as to how he'd take it so, for now at least, the secret is between my mom and I. I also am in a relationship with a great guy. I didn't really date very much in high school and college because, deep down, I thought something was wrong with me. The feelings that I have for my guy are feelings that I've never felt about anyone, and he feels the same about me. We've known each other for the past two years and we finally decided to officially date back in March of this year. My mom knows I'm dating him and so do my close friends. I do feel truly happy now, but I still have those days where I worry about things, namely my family finding out and the religious aspect ("am I wrong for having these feelings" and "can I change" are just two of the questions that I ask myself sometimes). I spent so many years of my life hating myself and denying these feelings to the point where I contemplated suicide on several different occasions. Being from a small town also made things incredibly hard. I had stumbled across this site a few years ago but never joined so I figured, "why not now?" I'm at a point in my life where I've accepted who I am and I'm so much happier now than before. I used to think I was an anomaly, that I was the only one struggling, but coming out and talking to others has helped tremendously. I don't know what's in store for me, but I do know that I'm not alone and I look forward to talking to others here. Oh and random but I'm a huge horror fanatic, so if you just want to discuss the latest flicks or the newest Walking Dead episode, I'm down for that as well lol Thanks for taking the time to read this guys!!
Hey walker, Welcome! I'm glad that you've been able to become more comfortable with your sexuality, and that you have the support of your mom and friends. I'm glad talking to others has helped and that you do not feel so alone. I'm thrilled that you have found a guy you can share your love with, and I'm glad you are truly happy now. I wish the two of you all the best! We will be here to help with anything you need when you are ready. It's very difficult when you don't have or fear that you won't have the support and love of those closest to you. It can really mess with your psyche. Of course, the answers to your questions are: No. You are certainly not wrong and no, if this is how you truly feel, you can not and should not change. Quoting from 'A Guide to Empty Closets for Parents' on the 'For Parents' tab of the welcome section of this site. Empty Closets - For Parents Your sexuality is a part of you, and it's what makes you who you are. You deserve to be happy and love whoever you love, and again I'm glad that you have found that happiness. Welcome to the community and thanks for introducing yourself and sharing some of your story.
Welcome! Glad you found this forum and introduced yourself. Hope you enjoy the support available at EC.
walker882 first I want to say hello and I am glad to meet you . Second please do not ever think of suicide again I am not the smartest person here by any means but I would be glad to listen and talk as long as it takes . I am here for you just send me a message any time .
