Hi Everyone My name is Sandy (Jason) and I am a 41 year old I guess you would call it a transgender woman as they would say it even though nothing about me if you saw me in person would suggest that I am this way. I guess I have always known that I was a woman deep down inside even though my outer body is totally masculine and I love having a beard and I am just really all guy. I guess I joined this so I can meet other people who feel the same way that I do or struggle with the same issues that perhaps I do. I know that I should be a woman but I don't have the time or the energy to do anything about it. I work seasonal jobs which take me all over the country and I love that lifestyle but I don't have the privacy to transition into becoming a woman by taking hormones and all that. I guess I am conflicted 50% of the time about it and it really doesn't consume my thoughts all the time but I do have phases when that is all I can ever think about and realize that I want to be a woman so badly and then other times I just like being a guy. By the way I am also gay and very much attracted to men. I have been sexual with females before and have enjoyed it but not as much as I have enjoyed being with men. I used to be very dominate but now I just want to be as passive as possible and I am not sure if that has to do with wanting to be a woman (no I think it def is) Well anyway I am happy to be here and I hope that I can contribute to the discussions. Thanks for taking the time in reading this.