A quick hello

Hi, my name is Sarah and I am 16

I live in the UK and I am a lesbian. Despite being on a site with so many others like me that is still such a terrifying thing to say! Unlike a lot of people I only started questioning my sexuality when I was about 12 which I think is due to the fact I had quite a sheltered life and my mum constantly told me I would have a husband and children so I didn't think to question it. Currently only my best friends and a few others know at school but I am trying to be a bit more open at school and let more people know. At some point I want to come out to my parents, but a mixture of bad anxiety and not wanting to let them down means it may not happen for a while. My parents have so many expectations of me, like having a big white wedding, marrying a man, having children and all that. I just don't want to let them down. There is also the issue that my Grandmother is convinced that all homosexuals are sinners and all that rubbish I don't want to hear about!

Right now, I feel alone and I feel like this is my way of being part of a fantastic community. One thing I am lucky to have is a gay friend and it is so good being able to talk about personal stuff with him because even though some of my friends know, they act like they don't because they find it weird and unnatural.

Anyway, I should stop writing now. Thank you for reading, it was great getting that off my chest. I hope to make some friends from this! Xx