Hi everyone, I guess im just looking for a place to actually get out what ive been feeling and see if theres feedback about whether its actually something or not. A lot lately, i mean a lot i have been fantasizing about being with another man, but only when im alone and having "private time". I probably should have read the rules at least a little so im not sure how in depth i should be about all this and how much info is to much info. A little background on me. Firstly im 40ish, married to a woman and have a family and i love them all so im a little confused about my feelings these days. Also my uncle is gay so ive been exposed to lgbt my entire life. In fact my first exposure to gay sex was a vhs porn tape i found in his closet one time when i was young. Ive experimented with homosexuality in my youth like many people, and actually been with a man once in my 20s. My wife knows nothing of any of this, but we have started some sexual activities that would certainly be considered gay and she has been a good sport about not being weirded out by it and actually let me buy a toy that made the fantasy more realistic. The kicker for me on a lot of it like the alone time fantasies is once im all done i feel guilty or at least not as turned on by it anymore. So i dont know if theres underlying feelings going on or if theres some sort of sexual addiction trending me towards things im turned on by or what. I guess im here because i just dont know who to talk to or what to say or how to move forward with figuring any of that out or what part of lgbt i might be if any. Thanks
