Bisexual?

I am 50 years old and have fantasized about being with another guy for as long as I can recall. A year ago I decided it wasn't going to happen by accident so I took steps to see that it did.

Male massage therapists from Craigslist, a local bookstore where guys hook up and once a "cruising" pickup with a transsexual.

A year later with my bi-curiosity a thing of the past I still occasionally seek these random encounters, and I kind of wonder why? It's not as hot as I imagined it to be, but I get a sense of... I don't know empowerment maybe?... from giving head. I get the same feeling from going down on a woman, but of course women are much more difficult hookup with. Even though I am married to one.

Do y'all think I am bisexual or just a kinky str8 guy?