I came across this website whilst looking for coming out letters (I'm not where ready to come out, it was more of a curiousity) A bit about myself: I'm from London, age 19 and I attend university. I wouldn't say I knew I was bisexual from a young age because I didn't know that you could love the same gender. But looking back at my childhood, I did feel some attraction towards girls. I come from age very religious muslim household who never spoke of homosexuality. It was during secondary school that one of my teachers who was openly lesbian presented LGBTQ+ talks... I started to explore my feelings and I knew that it wasn't just a 'phase'. I would say that I'm struggling deep down with internalised homophobia, it really doesn't help that I'm still living with my parents. I generally have low confidence and I'm struggling with a anxiety too. If I did come out I know that my dad would kick me out and possibly become violent towards me. I'm in a scary position and I don't want to live like this my entire life. I have come out to myself as bisexual and also an agnostic. I was brought up religious so still wear the scarf and what not so I get judged a lot at uni kinda, I want to meet new friends but I'm not sure if they'd feel comfortable around me. Thanks for listening :smilewave
Hi there! Welcome to the community. Congratulations on coming out to yourself! While it might be a while before you will be able to be yourself around those closest to you, know that you have already taken a major step, which could help in finding ways to move forward. I would encourage you to give people, possibly new friends or others that you meet at university, a chance. Being afraid of being judged, or excluded by others, is part of putting oneself out there, but more often than not you will find that people are curious to get to know you, and want to know more about you. EC is a safe place, and a place where you can be yourself and engage with others. I hope you will enjoy your visits to the site.
