Hi there everyone, hope your all doing well. I'm not used to sharing and kind of struggling to find my words so forgive me if I babble but it seems to work best when I write as things come to mind and then go back, otherwise I panic then freeze up. I'm Shooting Star and I just recently discovered that I'm a transvestite, all my life I've never felt totally male but I didn't feel entirely female ether. Physically I'm a guy and that's fine but mentally I feel female and for most my life it stayed in my head. Some online friends might refer to me in feminine pronouns and I'd fantasize about wearing a dress but it always just seemed like a silly daydream or an internet character, not real life. Well recently I was visiting a friend and shared some of my silly day dreams, long story short she talked me into trying on one of her dresses. My heart was in my throat and I wanted to crawl under a rock when she saw me with it on but underneath all that I never felt so good. It felt right, like this was the way things where supposed to be. It made me feel, balanced for lack of a better word. After that I've found myself wandering over to the ladies section of the store and thinking to myself "this would look cute" but haven't been brave enough to buy anything. I feel like there is this hurricane of thoughts and emotions inside my ahead, it's hard for me to find the right words to describe or explain it and despite my friend's best attempts I still get to flustered to talk about it. I'm hoping maybe talking here, where it's text instead of face to face will help me sort out my thoughts and calm things down enough for me to figure out just what this is.
