For most of my life i have tried to deny who i am and my true feelings for, friends, of those i love. the sake of my family. i have known that i was a girl from the time i was 5. For most of my teens i thought that if i prayed hard enough that God would make me a girl. From my late teens until my mid 20s i was afraid of my family so i hid my feelings. Then i became angry at my pain and my feelings and tried to run from the person, the girl, the lady i should be, i hated everything about her yet over and over i found myself dressing secretly and hating me all the more. I collected clothes and purged more often than i can remember. 18 years ago i finally accepted me and began to love myself for the 1st time in my life.i saw 2 psychologists who didn't help me and then a year ago i got mad again and decided to fight me for the rest of my life but my feelings won't go away, they keep getting more intense each day so here i am. i am a sped teacher living in central Georgia a long ways away from support or much help and i am not very brave noteven a little bit.
It's nice to meet you both. Thank you for taking the time to encourage me. i don't know you but i already luv you.