hi very new here

very nervous but after 46 years i'm coming out,and i really feel excited,and a sense of freedom,you know when you make a decision in life,afterwards you sometime regret,and ask yourself why did i do that,and how can i do damage control,well this time i totally feel right,mind you i work at a place that is very red neck homophobe,would never dream of expsing myself there,i have notified my sibling and her boyfriend very close family members and i'm not ashamed at all this weekend i plan to reveal my ever so long secret to my ex-wife,who i strongly believe she will back me 100 percent but still very nervous ,for it will be done in person.
i have fanatised about it for many years,hiding the dark secret for so long and last monday i grabbed the bull by the horns so to speak and had a very gay experience,and have been floating on cloud nine ever since,is this the feeling to be truely gay is like?i just want to scream to the whole world that i love people,is that so aweful why do people get so wound up about the idea,and get so homophobic,yes i realize there can be extreme backlash to openning all the way up,thats why i have kept it to immediate family only for now,and discretly put feelers out before opening up to large of a circle.any advise would be greatly appreciated,thanks for listening.

 

i love this place you'll all so friendly and welcome to others,and i really hope i will get the support i need,i'm still on cloud nine right now for admitting to myself of who i truely am,i goto work with such a positive attitude and inner peace,and i owe it to my new friend that must remain nameless,( married) kindest man you ever meet,i feel like i have awakened and starting out new in life,just too bad i waited 46 years to reach it.

 

thank you all for your warm welcomes,i'm swimming in my own excitement of coming out,and the feeling of acceptance from you all is great,especially through these hard econimic times people at work geting laid off wage cuts,and i feel bad for being so happy is that wrong? but i appologize for being honest and having this awakening,could life get any better,YEEESSS !!! too bad we still have snow on the ground i feel like running through a fresh early morning field of dew bare foot, ( naked would be more great ) but again thanks for the warm welcomes all.

 

ok well not in the city of winnipeg but i have found some very beautiful places to visit say a hour out of the city,that one could,lol,at the very least run bare footed through a fresh mornings dew,,thats before the mosquitoos get a change to drain you of all your fluids,insects that is,lol,. thanks for the welcomes its nice to see alot of canadians respond.