Hey everyone, Thought i'd look for some way to make myself feel more normal so here's me trying. I'm a girl on the inside but also a (slowly de-muscling) boy on the outside that I've created with 10 years of knowing I gotta be tough to survive.Really having a hard time with not knowing which friend groups or party's i probably won't be invited to or even have the guts to show up.Out to my family who don't understand but don't reject; a satirical story of a terrible morale theme of discontent. I think I can definitely pass if i had long hair, I always pictured and felt i was a scene style person.Looking in the mirror pretending i had more hair to style, awe over piercings and tattoos in moderation (maybe snake bites) looking up media with scene girls confused on why i couldn't be that .Short hairs all you've known and will be allowed. the unknowing society told me I was a joke. not to my face, not even on purpose, but to my inside i knew its felt pain. -Adopted -Mixed race -Transgender -bi-maybe? Whats next?