Hi, I'm Peter, I'm 37 and Scottish. I suspected I was gay in my teens and ignored it. I kept ignoring it and:bang: got misery and drug problems. I come from a Scottish travelling family, you know that homophobic boxer Tyson Fury,yeah,that type of culture. I had only had brief flings until about a year ago when I got my first boyfriend. I fell in love:icon_redf but it didn't work out. I did chase after him dressed as a giant panda when he finished with me so I see his point of view.... Anyway I've now told all my siblings(I told my mum I thought I was gay before she died)and most friends. A surprising amount suspected. They pointed out that i look/sound/act a bit girly,personaly i cant see what that stereotype has to do with it. They could have just said you run away if a girl comes onto you.My brother was the only bad reaction. I've not told my dad,I live at his place so its difficult. My pet cat took it well.:roflmao: Its been so easy that,paradoxically, I'm really feeling down.:tears: THIS is what I was scared off. I'm a grade a moron. I wasted years on misery,drug addiction etc. It just feels like I messed up so bad I might have ruined my life. First world problems right. On a more cheerful note I'm a huge anime and manga fan. I'm a punk,I love old UK stuff from the early eighties. I have dyed hair,leather jacket covered in badges and studs etc.I'm a atheist and rationalist. I love history,I have over a thousand history books and write articles for historical journals for fun. I have a 20 year old cat called stinky the boo. I am fairly down right now though, don't worry I'm not the silly type, I just don't know what to do next. If anyone went through something similar I'd like to hear. A seagull keeps trying to kill me at work.:help::help: See,that's the sort of stuff that happens to me. A charging sheep once put me in hospital!:eek:
No, actually I don't. I can't play the bagpipes either. I do hunt haggis in the hills at the weekends with a net though. You need two folk, the haggis has two legs,one shorter than the other so it can run round hills. Two folk get their nets,one goes left around the hill,the other right and bingo! Haggis for supper,you have to avoid their teeth though.:icon_bigg
Well, my dad knows. I thought hang it and(coward that I am)got my closest sister to tell him. He took it OK, I don't think he is going to mention it to me though. But now he knows. He did freak my sister out by asking her"is he the man or the woman"but aside from that.... Thing is it makes me hate myself even more for wasting all this time.
Wow thats not bad but the "is he a man or a woman?" I dont know why hearing that annoying stereotype pisses me off so much but it does. Maybe its my exhuastion from straight peoples ignorance that continues to be coddled by society but whatever i guess thats a reasonable reaction maybe.
Yeah,I know. He did mention it today to let me know he wasn't freaking too much I guess. I know this could have gone worse. He did ask if I was going to start wearing make up! I had to explain to him I'm gay not a cross dresser or transgender.