I guess I should be introducing myself here but feel free to check out my profile. What is posted below is my little story of how I ended up here. I just looking for some support, I have no idea how to seek help with this particular moment in my life. I really don't know what to say exactly. When I was younger dealing with simple crushes boy were on the other end. Even the guy I pined over in high school, was madly in love with and in a relationship with my first year of college, and just recently gotten over doesn't phase me anymore, not like she does. What I'm trying to say is, this is the guy I considered my first great love, never thought I have this feeling of infatuation for anyone else. Never even thought I'd want a deep relationship with anyone else. But I meet her and she trumps all the girl crushes I had in high school. So the crushes started in high school. I never paid them any mind because it was an all girls high school and I still was strongly attracted boys during that time. Dated a few, one took my breathe away. As much as I loved looking at these few girl crushes that I had, I never imagined them blossoming into something more because I had no idea what more looked like with them. What is my life like now? I'm in a relationship with a guy that felt complete before but now there are so many questions I just don't know why I'm still holding on. We have a long history and I truly consider him a dear, close friend on top of everything else I've considered him as, I just don't want to hurt him to be honest. But the confusion has to be sorted out.
