I am an older person just starting to come to grips with things, and right now I feel totally lost and alone...
Welcome to EC, aquaticguy! If you haven't already, check out the LGBT Later in Life Forum. You may find some useful threads there. And you can post your own threads with questions or issues you may have.
To echo what Quantumreality said, hopefully that forum can be helpful to you, and you can find people with similar experiences to yours. Welcome to EC!