Hello! I'm new.

Hello there! I am really glad I found this place. I'm very confused about my sexuality, I think I'm realising later on in life that I'm gay, although I'm still uncertain. I may be in denial, I don't know. In the last year I have been yoyo-ing back and forth between thinking I'm straight then thinking I'm gay. It's causing me a great deal of distress and I cry a lot when I think about it. I've been in a long term heterosexual relationship for 7 years with a man who is my best friend and the thought of breaking up with him/ hurting him just kills me. It's not something I would be willing to do until I know it's right. I do feel however, there is something missing in our relationship. The same thing that has been missing in all the relationships I've had since I first started dating boys. I'm realising now that I had subconsciously tried to seek out this missing something with my female friends, lots of affectionate snuggles on the couch and so on, I think I connect emotionally with women more than I do with men, but I have never had any physical relations with a woman so I don't know if that's normal or if there is something more to it.

I hope that by becoming a part of your community and reading about other peoples experiences I will be able to figure out my sexual identity. It took a long time for me to decide to start this journey I am both optimistic and utterly terrified. I look forward to meeting you all and making new discoveries about myself. Much love to you all <3

 

Thanks Quantum! I had a chance to explore those bords a little bit earlier. I'm already feeling less alone, I'll do some hardcore lurking for a while then hopefully I'll get the guts to start my own thread..

Thanks Jolly, I hope so too =)