Hi everyone, I'm a 40+ married (to a woman) guy who has recently started meeting guys for sexual pleasure. Around 8 years ago, I met a couple of guys locally "just to see what it was like", one was an outdoor meet just for oral and the other was for mutual full sex. The first meet was awful as the guy ejaculated almost immediately and I was quite underwhelmed by the second experience as the guy was quite small and to be honest, I couldn't feel anything. At the point I thought to myself "well, I've tried it and don't like sex with men so that's that". Also I found it quite hard to hook up with other guys at the time just to see if I liked it. Fast forward to 3 months ago and after watching a straight porn movie, I found myself getting aroused by the guy's dick being sucked. After a quick search online I found a really good "hookup" site where I've found guys locally who just want no-strings sex. I've already met up with a few guys - 3 for just oral and one with a crossdresser for full sex. I've loved the oral and loved intercourse with the CD but unfortunately he found it hard to penetrate me which was a bit of a disappointment. I must admit I get really turned on when I suck a guy and I'm desperate to have a fulfilling "bottom" experience but I don't like kissing men, nor do I like physical contact other than sexual and every time I'm with a guy, as soon as I've cum I lose interest and tell myself "no, I'm not gay, I just like the sexual part". Does anybody else feel this way? Well that's me, sorry it's a bit of a long first post.
