Hello, My name is Eric, i am 44 years old. I was married 16 years and I have two beautiful children, 8 and 4. I came out to my wife last November after a couple of months of serious identity crisis and almost depression. I always was attracted to guys but managed to block those thoughts and ignore the feelings, and I like girls enough that I could date them and eventually even married. But recently as I took time to reflect on my life, all those feelings and memories and even some of my youth experiences came all back to me and made me realize who I was. And after going through several of the stages described on this site, i eventually told my wife that I was gay. It's only been just over a month and I have an apartment just a few minutes away from where our house is. I see my kids everyday, I still see my wife everyday. Our relationship is somewhat still good most times. And I am starting to form a community of friends around me. I haven't come out to my parents and don't feel I ever will and I haven't come out to most of my friends yet as I don't know if I will be able to or even if it is necessary. I just finished watching the documentary "Coming out" released recently and it gave me a real and new sense of pride. And an awkward and unexpected feeling that I wasn't alone. So it's still in the process of slowly accepting and learning that I say Hello EC.
Hey there, Eric! Welcome to EC. Glad to hear that you're starting to accept yourself and I'm glad things are going well for you. I hope you enjoy the community we have here!
Hello Eric! Welcome to EC! I wish you all the best in your new life! And you are definitely not alone; you have friends here on EC who understand what you are going through and can provide advice and moral support.