Just going to cruise around for a bit and see if I might find any helpful insight to my situation. I've always known, but yes, I conformed to societal expectations. Was married for 18 or so years, 1 child, and then divorced by age of 42. A few dates here and there, now and then, with men. Nothing was doing it for me. Always had small crushes and was attracted to woman. I'm 52 now, (a very young 52) have absolutely no desire to be with a man, and can see myself living happily ever after with a woman. Coming out will be extremely difficult if and when I decide. Kinda feel acknowledging it to myself was a major step in itself, maybe I should just wait to see if I ever meet a special lady first ...
Welcome! Seems like you have a lot of exploring to do, but that can be so very exciting! I wish you nothing but the best on your journey. People here have been great whenever you need to talk.