Um.... Hi?

Hey,

So I am new here and I came to this site because I am confused with my life right now and I also don't really have anyone to talk to, so I figure this might be better, behind an anonymous face.

I am not really sure how I identify. I have never really felt true love for anyone (I am only 14) and I also have never had either a girlfriend or a boyfriend in my life. However, I get feelings sometimes when watching movies or tv shows in All of the kissing scenes, or more, between both men and women as well as two girls together.

I go to a really open and accepting school where basically more than half of the school's population is part of the LGBT+ community, and the rest of the people are accepting of everybody as well, so it's not like I am scared of being laughed at, it is that I am scared of being considered an outsider or considered ignorant (and foolish).

I don't really want to talk to my best friend (who is pansexual by the way) about my feelings, because basically everyone (including her) thinks I am straight, and nothing else, and I do not want to seem like I am just trying to fit in with certain friend groups or something like that.

I don't really now what to do, and I am struggling to even find out my feelings. It also doesn't help that I am struggling with other problems like procrastination, feelings of being overwhelmed, etc. (and therefore struggling in school, even though i don't really show it) so I don't have time to just sit around and think about anything.

Sorry to dump all my problems on you guys, but I just never felt free to talk openly about this anywhere/with anyone.

-Rogue

 

Thanks a lot. I hope I can find a good place to fit in here