Helloooo!

Greetings from small town Mississippi! (Yeah... it's an awful place to be gay in.)

I'm 15 and a lesbian. My parents know, but I'm not allowed to tell my much-younger sister yet, and one of my aunts has an extremely epic gaydar and found out. (But then again, it's sort of obvious when a 15-year-old girl never looks at or mentions guys, ever.) Some friends also know. Actually, I think my entire grade may know at least on some level, but it's not something I really like to discuss at school because, you know, it's small town Mississippi. People here are... bad.

School is kind of lonely. There aren't any openly gay people, and most of my friends don't even go there. Well, there's this girl in one of my classes, and she has this hugely obvious crush on this other annoying girl but flat-out refuses to admit it, even to me. Most people there are homophobes, including the teachers, who sometimes step way out of line.

But yeah, most of my friends are a little older than me and have recently graduated, or they are my age but have had to move. The girl I like happens to fall in the latter category... I was crushed when she left. She only went about half an hour away, but it has changed things a lot. I don't talk to her as much as I should, and I've gotten a lot shyer because she was really the only person around who understood and appreciated me. I really miss her a lot.

Um, I like cheesy 80s movies and Siberian husky dogs. I really want one, but sadly I cannot have a doggy right now. I am mathematically inept. I'm a bit of a cloud-cuckoo-lander, especially if I haven't had enough sleep. I love art. I laugh and/or cry at everything. I tend to ramble. I am very sensitive to smells. I have a slight case of social anxiety.

Kudos if you read all that. Haha.

 

Thanks, all of you! I think I'm going to like it here!