hi, i tried to introduce myself , but i messed up and posted twice. the intro post was wiped away. my name is Paul and i have been wondering what i was since the teen years. i am very shy and cautious, but since i joined a 12 step program, i have been given tools and courage to move forward, even if i am scared. this is a very frightening adventure for me. i have always wondered if i might be gay. the complexities of having been CSA from 4-14 has definitely impacted my life. my T says i have Complex PTSD, because i was abused sexually, physically, and mentally, etc. i have been in therapy for 2 yrs now and i am becoming more able to come out of the fortress that has kept me relatively safe for all these years. i am very afraid to say that i am 57 years old. so, i wonder if i should really be here. it seems like a safe place to discover what i really am sexually and am hopeful that i can. please tell me if this place is not for me and i will leave. i dont ever want to impose. thanks for listening. peace popper
First, Welcome to EC. Second, doesn't matter how old you are this is a place to help you find yourself. And third, I'm sorry to hear about that sad past (*hug*) but hopefully here you can find yourself and finally put it behind you so you can start moving forward and be completly happy with yourself. :icon_bigg
Hi Paul, welcome to EC, I'm new too and hoping to discover who I am as well with the help of this site. What I like so far about this site is that it accepts everyone, so don't worry about your age, it doesn't matter at all. Sorry to hear about your past, but it sounds like your ready to enter a new phase in your life. Hopefully this forum will help you do just that. We're all here to help and support each other
Greetings Paul! For many the admission of self-ignorance on the matter of sexuality can be quite scary. If you haven't already consulted them, the Resource pages and Support and Advice Threads are full of wisdom. Your stay here is not at all conditional on your age. While the forum has a fair number of younger members there are also members of a more "classic vintage".
Welcome to EC again! There's only one rule here (or as I have learned in my short time here): Come as you are! It doesn't matter what your age is, your height, your skin colour or your personal background. I'm truly sorry to hear about your abuses, but to let you know, you are not alone. If you need anything, ask anyone in EC. Take care and enjoy!