Hi....

So I'm a girl.. and I'm 17 and live in Australia.

I'm not a very interesting person.. on the surface. I used to be, but circumstances and conditions have kind of retreated me... but I intend on changing that.

There are SO many things to say.. but I can't find the words. I'm used to living a life where I struggle to see my friends in the way that they see me... and then to come someplace like this where I don't have to hide behind a mask of carefully constructed emotion... it's really rather surreal.

I have known about my sexuality since my very early teens, it hasn't been particularly apparent in my thoughts or emotions but it was always lurking.. always in the shadows and well I don't see why it should be in the shadows anymore.

I work for Subway with an incredibly homophobic manager. Can I ever say anything? Ha, as if. So everyday, I put up with her bitching, taunts and all of the prejudices that she tries to transfer to me. I'm sure if she knew that she'd stop, because aside from all of her beliefs, she is a kind person but I'm also pretty sure that if I told her, it'd change her attitude towards me (and potentially my state of employment!) and I need the money!

I like any and all sorts of music; Pop, Industrial, Jazz, Country, Dance... yes. Everything. There's not a lot that I'll say no to.. well maybe some R&B or Rap.. but I do respect the genre.. ah what the hell am I talking about music for.. I'm rambling!

Anyway, this is my intro...

So all I really need to say is..

Hi!

[By the way, my username - Vates, they're prophets that are known to rejoice in the free will of others.. just ignore the bits in the history books about sacrifices.:icon_wink ]

 

Wow!! So many fast and friendly replies and I already feel at home here!!

Okay.. so I read through my original post and realised that I was hardly upfront about things. So prepare to delve deeper into ... me.. if you wish. Hmm.. that sounded kind of odd.. but I can't be bothered to change it.

Right, so I guess you could say that I was 'recovered' from an Eating Disorder, of course I'm not recovered, it's what I tell my psychiatrist as he weighs me with pockets full of coins... He's often questioned me about my sexuality, but I don't tell him anything about it because he was rude when he asked me and people who are rude get nowhere with me.

I also came out.. kind of. About three months ago, I said to my parents as a joke (they were making me work for them) and I said 'it's because I like girls isn't it?'.. *laughs crazily*, yes they are very liberal and open minded people (not that I think you should have to be particularly open minded to accept lesbian and gay relationships but that's another story), but I remember how although they never said anything directly about it, everything changed. I didn't push it and they never mentioned it again. Sometimes I wish that I could just yell it at them and not have to deal with it anymore.. but life isn't meant to be easy like that.

Okay, some dot points:

* I'm a vegetarian.
* My avatar is my 9 year old baby, Kess.
* I've got near shoulder length brown hair.
* I have chipped fingernails and although that doesn't bother me cosmetically, it's just really frustrating!
* I like to read, learn, write and sing.
* I am immensely interested in history, to the point where I failed my history class because I shunned the boring syllabus and outstripped my teacher in her knowledge of ancient religion. (her focus subject). I get the feeling that she didn't like that.
* I am also an avid Chemistry Student (who says 'avid' these days?!)
* I obsessively watch 'The Bill', 'Doctor Who' and I am in love with the new season of 'New Tricks'
* I am getting a snake tattooed on the underside of my left wrist on Saturday.

* I've written too much.:icon_redf

 

Thankyou! It is absolutely amazing to not have to censor myself and be happy and open without really thinking.. It's fantastic!

I don't think I'll be coming out at work, at all. That's okay. I keep telling myself that her beliefs are her beliefs and that I should respect them and just do my own thing. But anyway, I might just give in and get a new job. Thankyou for the welcome!

Thankyou! I love it here!

Yay for your birthday being soon! I don't think that she'll ever get over her beliefs and I'm pretty sure that I'll never come out with her... eventually I'll get a new job and then it won't really matter anymore. Thanks the welcome! This place is amazing!

Thankyou! I don't know what possessed me to make the joke and although they've probably forgotten about it and have accepted that it was merely a joke, sometimes I wonder what would've happened if I kept pushing it... but I didn't. (damn!)

I am a boring person really.. my intro is just every shred of glamour that I could think up for myself, every part of me that might be relevant or interesting. I was asked the other day, 'so what do you do, apart from working,' and I said... 'sleep, read books' and well.. the conversation kind of just fizzled. I'm getting excited about my tattoo, I still need to make sure that I really want it and that I really want it where I say I really want it. Anyway, thanks!!

I'm just so avid about saying avid.. my friends think it's weird too. I would tell them that it's because they've never read a book in their life, but that would be mean and untrue, because I made them read Harry Potter after we went to the movies and saw the first one. Yes! This place is so friendly! It's like nothing I have ever seen from any internet forum (and I've been to many unrelated from this). It's awesomeness. Thankyou so much for making me feel welcome!

Thankyou (*hug*), I'm really feeling a part of it right now, it's great!

Hi! I'm kind of recovered; I've done all types of therapy and support groups are awesome! It can depend on the group leader and the members (they'll be generally okay) and then what sort of things you're going to talk about. Everyone there will be recovery orientated, especially the other members.

You'll most likely have fun, so try and remain relaxed about it. Remember that therapy won't try to make you do something that you're not comfortable with.(although they might try and push).

Good luck and thankyou for welcoming me! (*hug*)

Thankyou!!

 

I am so happy to be here! Seriously, I've been here all day! Thankyou for the welcome, I love it here (*hug*)

Hi! I'm from Newcastle, but don't hold it against me :icon_wink, thanks for the welcome!

Yay!! Another veggie! It's great to be here and thankyou for making me feel welcome!

I love it here, thankyou (*hug*)

Thankyou!

Hiya :smilewave

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Okay, so I am feeling beyond welcome right now! More than beyond if that is even possible and I'm really happy to be here and well... thank you for letting me be a part of your community. (&&&) (*hug*)