Hey friends, so I thought I'd write up a little introduction. As far back as I can remember I've been attracted to guys. Every Sunday morning since as long as I can remember, I'd covertly look at men's underwear ads. I never really felt anything for girls, but I thought it would just come to me later in life. It hasn't, and at this point I don't think it will. I'm currently in the closet, and pretty far in fact. None of my friends or family even have the slightest clue. I should win an Oscar for my acting. A couple of months ago I decided that I was just going to play the part of a straight male and just deny any homosexual feelings I had completely. That was until I started talking to someone I meet online that was gay and out and also went to my school. Since I only knew him online, there was barrier there that gave me the opportunity to be completely honest with him. The more I talked to him, the more I realized that I shouldn't live that lie and I'm becoming more and more comfortable with the idea of coming out. I really owe him a lot, more than I can ever express in words. Kinda strange, owing so much to a person I've never met. Hopefully it will be a life-long friendship. Thanks to him, I use to think, "No one can ever ever find out," now I'm starting to think "How will XXXX react when I tell them?" I was looking up how to come out and I found this site, so I'm here. I don't really know how or when I will come out to my college friends, but I want it to be some time during Spring semester. Thankfully, I've always chosen my words carefully and never said I'm straight and I've always just let people assume I was. I think my family will come later, much later. So yeah, that's me in a nutshell. I've made some anonymous post and I really appreciate the kindness I've been meet with. I hope one day, I'll be on the other side of the table giving advice. Cheers, Spirocracy
