Hi there, From a young age I was always into the softer things of life. I would paint, play music (it started with the violin) enjoyed film and art and acting. When I was young I had pale blue eyes, slender build and fine features. I started to have feelings for other boys when I was around 13. I remember a boy at my high school. Tall and tanned, the way I kept thinking about him was 'me but with everything upgraded’. He was always just a little smarter, a little more tanned, his hair a little blonder, he was stronger, faster and kinder than I was. I think this was the start. Then there was a teacher I remember feeling a strong urge to kiss, although obviously never went through with it. Then my grade 12 year ended and I went up to a local beach to party with some friends. There was a lot of drinking that night, but I can hold my booze quite well. I remember trying to get back together with one of the few women I have ever been really comfortable with (I found out later that she was a lesbian and that is part of the reason she broke up with me) then failing with a girl there who likes to sleep around. After that I ended up talking with male friend of mine for a bit, and then finding a downstairs bedroom to lie down in. I will spare you the details but after a little 3rd base action we fell asleep. The next morning I was confused and embarrassed, although the people in the house I actually cared about didn't mind. The friend of mine walked me down to the bus, we held hands and I smoked. I can't forget how different it was kissing him, and how nice. I think of myself as Bisexual, but as a friend of mine (a fantastic friend) said I could pass for androgynous and I find myself noticing males more and more. The same friend has invited me to explore the gay community where I am living at the moment and I am nervous as hell but also excited.
