Hello everyone. my name is jakey (or jake), at least that's what i'd preffer to be called. I'm 25 years old and right now I'm not exactly sure who I am though I think I am transgender. (I once thought of myelf as bigendered but I preffer to think of myself as male) I have always been a "tom boy" and could never understand the whole girly dressing up and taking hours to do make-up process. I had very few female friends growing up and had little interest in what supposidly normal little girls were into. I just thought this was down to being a tom boy but in the last couple of years I realised it was much more than that. I started to identify myself as bigendered (only to a few close friends) and began to accept myself as that but the more I accepted it the lesser the desire to be female --- both mentally and physically. I am now thinking about my future and I like the idea of someday transitioning to male, which leads me to think maybe I am transgendered after all. but I know I'm no where near ready for that step yet. I have a long way to go before I do that, if I even do at all. However just because I consider myself to be male does not mean I am not effeminate. people seem to automatically think being girly and being a girl are the same things. they're not. plenty of guys are girly and taking into consideration the fact I am mostly gay (i am technically pansexual as I'm attracted to cis men and women, intersexed people, trans or bigendered but it's rare I like women) and also have a sort of emo style (i have a fringe and I still wear eyeliner) makes me a bit of a girly boy at times. I don't really have an interest in being a big muscle man. men come in all shapes and sizes and that's one stereotypical image I certainly don't want to fit into. in my view gender is a state of mind not a fashion statement >.< just be yourself. anyway sorry for the long intro anything you wanna know just ask (i don't bite honest ) and I'll talk to you all sometime soon Hope to speak to you all soon. love, Jakey (!)
