hi everyone. i'm 18 (19 in a few weeks) and i'm very confused. i have been questioning my sexuality for a couple of years now, but it hasn't bothered me until recently. my mom kept asking me if i was a lesbian, and when i continuously told her that i wasn't, has told me that she would be okay if i was. one of my aunts is a lesbian and is even engaged. everyone in my family is completely accepting of her openness and we all love her fiance. this aunt and her fiance (who i also consider as an aunt) have joked around hinting at their thoughts on my sexuality. i talked to them about what my mom said and my aunt's fiance joked around that they would be accepting of me if i was straight. i have talked with a select few of my closest friends and told them i was questioning. they have told me that they will accept me no matter what and that they still love me. i know that i should be happy that i have so many accepting people in my life, but my issue is that i can't accept myself. i don't know why, but i can't say it out loud that i may be lesbian or even bi. i just don't know. i have been in a minor depression since i've come out to my friends. it really sucks, but i'm glad i found this site because i think seeing other people's stories will help me.
Hi and welcome! I'd say take your time getting confortable with yourself and it's a huge bonus that your family is accepting! As for the part that you can't seem to say it out loud...try saying it to yourself first. Personally, I find telling other people in the face that I'm gay is...awkward.
Hey welcome to EC, I truely think that despite having supportive people around you accepting yourself is a really hard thing.