i'm trying to knock down my internal walls that keep me from being open with the people i know in real life. i'm 25, lesbian, have known this since i was like 6 but hadn't understood or accepted myself until fairly recently. my mother taught me to accept people who are different, which i always have, but that made me feel like i was supposed to be one of the normal people. even though i encourage others to love themselves and not worry what others think i have had a difficult time practicing what i preach. my friends think i'm bisexual because i used to say that i don't discriminate gender, which was true for some time but i truly feel no desire for an intimate relationship with a man. i don't know why it feels so weird to tell my friends, like i'll say it if it comes up in conversation but i'm not going to announce it. it's also weird because my closest friends are straight women and gay men, which means i'm the only one in our group who is attracted to females. so hello, everybody!
