I am me, will you help me find out who that is?

Hello everyone.

What do you think I should say?

 

Hm, it is always difficult to pull out random aspects about myself... I am in University currently, taking mostly biomedical courses, I am a virgin and have never been in a relationship, however it is the way i chose it so-far, so no regrets. One of my hobbies is breeding goldfish, and I cannot stand a day when I cannot go out into nature. I am very open about everything, and bluntly honest, I can easily go on and on with a conversation starting about particle physics and neutrino quantum numbers, to sex toys, to the existence of consciousness only by perception, to criminal psychology; except I am not bluntly honest to myself about who I am ironically, and always keep that part under a mask.

 

Thank you, I think this will be a great place to express some aspects about me.

---------- Post added 13th Jun 2012 at 10:49 PM ----------

Well perhaps I could discuss my sexuality, since this is the type of place to do it.

A little backstory (Warning: It is blunt and honest). When I was five I thought to myself, "I wonder when I will like girls", that lasted to puberty which happened early for me, and corresponded to when I got my own computer... ... ... yeah great time ... ... ... I remember just searching random things and one search was "muscle", and I say this bodybuilder, and something changed in me, and I didn't know what, but I liked it (Of course I was aroused, I knew what arousal was then, but I was young and didn't put 2 and 2 together). Eventually after I was curious about muscles growing and the idea of the body expanding, (like a quick tie-lapse of muscles expanding over time, or an erection growing and getting hard like a balloon) I found a website about penis pumps and pumping and some pictures showing their effects on the penis and balls after a few hours of time in the tube. I remember I was first repulsed, but then the next day I looked again at it, then again and again, and that's when I first started questioning who I was and experienced fear at the idea of my sexuality.

I love woman, but not sexuality. I love their uniqueness and individuality. I love strong woman who express themselves with little limitation. I love the body shape and curves, the hips and eyes especially. But their is little to no attraction. I love young guys and muscle, and boyish features, perhaps some freckles across a petit nose with short curly hair. I like the idea of it, however I never really think of the personality other than smiling and hugging and gratifying them. With woman it is more of artistic gratification and mystery and excitement, however with young guys/bodybuilders it is more of a fantasy... Perhaps that explains my sexuality somewhat.

---------- Post added 13th Jun 2012 at 10:49 PM ----------

Maybe I should just put this all in one separate post later, we will see.

 

Wow that has most defiantly made my day! Thank you all so much. (!)

 

And I hope I can say the same to you.