My name is Snowball, and I am new here. I found this site when I googled how to survive in homophobic environment. At the beginning I have to apologize my bad english, it is not my first language :icon_redf I live in little conservative rural town in the Europe. I moved back here about a year ago, because I wanted to spend my dads latest months with him. He died some months ago, and I am happy that I had a possibility to support and help him and spend my time with him before he passed away. Now it feels a little bit emty and confused. What now? I have not a big family, only one sister and some cousins and they all live here. One of my cousins have hated me a long time. I'm in my late forthies (and maybe a little older than the other people here) and she is in her mid thirties. She has always done her best, that everyone surely knows that I am sinfull gay. She worked two weeks at the same place like me and outed me to every single person at work :eusa_doh: Today I'll try to do my life so good as it's possible. I try to hang out with my friends. They live two and a half an hour away in the bigger city and I try to enjoy to live the same place like my sister who is so important to me. When I read your stories and the amazing answeres I hope I'll find a wisdom to take a next step in my life.
Hello Snowball! And it's fine, your English is not bad ^^. I think you should really avoid this cousin, she's really a person that doesn't benefit your life. You are who you are and you like what you like, as long you don't hurt anyone it is not wrong! It is not sinful to be gay, but some people don't understand that... Have you thought about moving to the city? Maybe it is difficult if you already have a job in the rural town but maybe you will be happier there? Sorry if I cannot advice much, I don't know the whole story so... Still, I just want you to know there's good people here and you're not alone ^^ so welcome to this forum and enjoy! People are kind and everyone is willing to listen and help!
Hello Snowball :smilewave Don't worry about your English and you'll find lots of really nice people here. Sorry to near about your father - you're never really prepared when a parent dies. (*hug*)
Snowball, which country in Europe do you live in and which city are your friends in? Was that where you lived before you went home to look after your father? I'm 53 so you don't have to worry about being too old! (&&&)
Hello Snowball! Your english is not bad! Pretty good & I agree with what everything shironuma said! haha. You'll meet a lot of people dealing with a similar situation.
