Hi I'm new to this. I live in ny, I'm married to a woman and have a young girl. I love my daughter, and really enjoy my wife except when she's bitchy. I'm extremely confused about my sexual orientation. I suppose I'm bi, but I've only had actual sex with women and although the experiences vary from the very ordinary to the highly enjoyable, I do enjoy visiting gay clubs and taking in the m to m vibe. I fool around a little when there. It's fun but not at the same deep feeling level I get when masturbating thinking of a mans hairy cock. Strangely in the day to day I'm only consumed with feelings and thoughts directed at women. I love the way they look, And have had the most exciting experiences of my life enjoying their sex parts. If I am bi the heterosexual part seems greatly interested in intimacy and love. I am a painter (successful) and try to give reign to gay feeling in painting. In fact alot of my more successful insights seem to derive from my homosexual side. Help!
Hello and welcome There are people in EC that will be able to help you with your situation sadly i cannot but good luck painters are awesome
Welcome! :smilewave Let time decide, because there is no rush in figuring out your sexuality. You could very well be bi. (*hug*)
I don't know how your wife will feel about this, if she knows about this. If I were her, I would have a fight with you. Because I will feel insecure. I wish your wife is more open-minded. In that case, your problem is no longer a problem. It is not wrong that homosexual stuff can help your painting career. I hope it can help my exams.(Kidding)
If my main is interest is incredible animal pleasure sex and the hetero part is more about beauty having family and intimacy( which marriage may not reliably Produce, how can I frame the fact that as an artist the chi side seems to Dominate. I makes me feel like a tawdry artist or something. Maybe deep down I'm gay and the hetero side is just less strong but far more developed
Yesterday I went to a gay bathhouse with a nice pool. Watched guys do each other and really enjoyed the steam room. Still more interested in the hot Russian women receptionist on the way out. I'm also loving those Asian massage place that excite you. I'm actually sort of addicted. Oh this bi thing is torturous!
I'm Bi, so I can relate to the being confused part. But here's the thing, you are married and you have a kid. From what I gather you have a normal sex life with your wife, e.g. Sometimes average sometimes great which I think rings true in any and every sexual relationship. Being Bi does not mean that you need to have sex with both men and women to feel whole, it simply means you have the possibility to either fall in love with a guy or a girl, and therein lies the essence, love... There's a difference between love and lust and I would like to believe that when we find a partner whom we want to marry and grow old with that relationship will be based on love, not lust. So being straight, will you find other women sexually attractive? Of course you will. Being gay, will you find other men sexually attractive? Definitely. Being Bi, will you find other men and women sexually attractive? I think the answer is pretty obvious... It's called lust and unlike love, lust comes pretty quickly and then goes pretty quickly. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that if you found your soul mate in your wife, then count yourself lucky. So what if you ind both girls and guys attractive, doesn't mean you have to act on it. Happiness is found in love, not lust.
I wouldn't say soul mate... But solid marriage... Perhaps. If it were a unmitigated great marriage it would all be more clear. Maybe at some point you decide this is good enough. But the nagging fear is that if I'm unconsciously gay That it just wrong to love this way (in my marraige) And even possibly mentally dangerous.... Do I have a form of homosexual "panic" Woe is me.
The rush is your responsibility to the other people you affect. I guess it still takes time in any case. I guess that is why many people just come clean! Oye
