Hello everyone, Happy new year and i hope you are all well. I am a post op MtF transexual (10 year ago now.. wow how time flys!) I just finished a degree and now looking for new things in my life. simples really.
Thank you all. I am not to good at talking about myself, I will admit to a bit of a confidence issue but I will give it a go. I guess, for me, it all really started at the age of 10, noticing that everything didn't feel right and starting to feel trapped in your own prison of flesh. I did not like who I was and having a body that was not developing the way I thought it should be. This made me feel like an outcast and plainly odd, the world said you should be one way when I felt it should be another. I was and am still attracted to women, which made me feel even more out off odds than ever. How could I want to be female and still be attracted to females? My mind felt like it was a mine field of errant thoughts and one wrong move would be disastrous. By age 16 I was my own worst enemy and suicide felt like my only option it was my darkest days. Let’s just say I attempted something and, luckily for me it didn’t go to plan. I researched what was wrong and at first I didn’t know what to do about it, so at age 20 I finally got the guts up to talk to my doctor. He was extremely helpful and he for the ball rolling for treatment. It wasn’t easy, seemed like I overcame one issue just to get another, talking to my family... It cost me a lot, I spent a lot of time alone. At age 25 I got my operation and became an uncommonly young male to female post op transsexual, I think the average age of a MtoF transsexual here in the UK is 45. It felt great for a while but in the 10 years since I still find myself alone, still attracted to women but they are not to me.. Confidence issue.. :bang:
