Hey people, just a little bit about moi...

Hey there people of earth, i think it's time i say a bit about me and say HIIIIIII!!!


I am 17, I love music! I am gothy, I have a bit of an obsession with pin up models, i freakin love Marilyn Monroe, got a massive poster of her on my wall. Well i guess i should really explain the reason why i am on this site...

I was born a girl, but always felt like a guy...not straight away though i didn't know about that stuff i was too young to, but i remember being put into cute dresses and i remember going into my brothers closet and trying on his clothes and admiring myself in the mirror.. it felt good, it felt..right

I tried really hard to be more girly, my best friend at the time when we were 11 i think tried so many times to get me to wear makeup and yeah it worker and i let her coat me in the stuff but it just felt like wearing a mask.. i felt awful.. depressed even at that age about something i didn't tell anyone (I have told my sister, a connextions worker i see... i dunno if anyone knows what that is and obviously a few peeps online know)

I felt so bad going through puberty, i cut my developing breasts... i wanted them gone. I was abused as a kid... :bang: in all ways... i have multiple personalities too (MPD/DID) which doesn't make feeling like this any easier. I In the past few years i have thrown myself between being girly ish and not, It's hard because my mum doesn't know and stuff.. and i go college and the people would be freaked out if i go in in my "guy look" but i dunno how much more i can take


Well i think that's enough for one day... :help: I'm getting so emotional just writing this. If anyone wants to comment some words of wisdom or advice that would be nice, (&&&) I just needed to get out this really, if anyone wants to talk...let me know. Thanks. Bye (*hug*)