I just recently found this website and I wrote my first blog. Which I never would have done without a provoking reason. I am a high school senior. I have some issues that I have from my past that I am now getting out. Anyway, I have been so confused about who and what type of person I was attracted to. Lets say specific family members have never accepted me for different reasons and I keep to myself about everything because I can't trust them. I haven't been the most social person, to the extreme, until I turned 17 (which was a year ago). But I can say that, now, I am never going to be with a "man". There is a psychological issue, that I assume, is a issue a lot men and women deal with. It is called "Hetero-Emotional". Basically saying that a person is attracted to the stability and emotional connection of a hetero relationship but is sexually attracted to the same sex. Of which I found that it was exactly what I feel about my life up until now. It's so nice feeling that there is other people who feel this way. So, I have been looking up what a lesbian is and what types their are. Since I am new to all of this I realized like I said I never want to be with a man, even if I get emotionally attached, which tells me I am a lesbian but not a good one. I identify with "futch". Since I learned that their is a name to how I feel, I dug into myself because of different reasons. I wanted the acceptance of a male figure in my life since my dad is dead and my mom is distant and that is one reason I have chosen total assholes in my life and it never worked (Hetero-Emotional plus me forgiving everyone). I have been writing and writing almost everyday about things in my past that I have repressed I realized I am both afraid of getting committed to anything and I am deathly afraid of men. I find refuge in women and that makes me more emotionally attached to women. I don't know if I am getting my point across but I will eventually. I'm just trying to say I have been out of touch with people and now I actually have friends and people who support me. And that I realized I am not who I thought I was. So here's to a new life and growth!
Welcome! :smilewave I am sure you will find a comfortable place here. Hmm... there are many same-sex couples in long, steadfast relationships that are a lot more stable and meaningful than many hetero couples. That being said, I'm sure they have some outside difficulties that hetero couples don't have.
Hello, and welcome to EC! Don't worry, there's a lot of cool people on here to help you with any issues you have