I'm not really sure what I'm looking for here. I guess just some people going through, or who have gone through similar experiences. I got married to a man when I was very young. I hadn't given myself time to "find myself". So, for the past few years I've been totally, completely convinced that I am a lesbian. No question about it. But recently I am wondering if I'm not just bisexual. I thought I knew who I was...just another total closet case. Either way my marriage is not sexual in any way and being stuck in the closet like this feels really lonely! Since I got married I've been totally isolated, no friends at all, and I am afraid to make friends because I'm afraid to be who I really am with anyone. I'm afraid it will somehow get back to my husband, or worse, I'll actually fall in love with someone and be faced with the scary option of actually living my life. So, hi all, that is where I'm at.
Aww, thats terrible. I know how being afraid of being who you truly are feels and its really awful. Hopefully you can overcome the fear and move on with time. Do you have any attraction twards men? How strongly are you attracted to females? Oh, and welcome to the forums! ^_^
Welcome to EC. Sorry you're in such a tough situation. I am married as well. It can be difficult, especially if your husband isn't supportive and/or doesn't know.
Thanks everyone for such a warm welcome! SpitfireXsoarin, to answer your question: that's a good question! It's hard for me to say. I don't usually see attractive men in public and think of them in *that* way, but I do with women. On the other hand, and pardon me if this is too much, I find the idea of guys together to be really hot and find myself attracted to men I know who are gay or bi. Is that unusual for a woman? Please forgive me if I'm being politically incorrect.
