Hi, EC. My name is Bridget and I am 16. Up until maybe two or three year ago, I thought it was wrong to be gay. In my eyes, other gay people were fine, but I had never seen myself being gay. I thought that it'd be wrong if I was, and the crushes I developed for girls didn't help anything. When I finally accepted myself, I hid it from everybody. I thought I'd be ridiculed. The only people who knew were my closest friends, and my first girlfriend, Mackenzie. But when we ended, I went back to hiding behind books and fake boyfriends. The reason my sexuality is questioning is because I fell in love with a boy, Eric. I don't thinking of anything sexually with him, but my heart swells at the mention of his name and I truly love him. I just don't think I could ever get over the sexual boundary. Through experimenting with an earlier boyfriend last year, I learned I do not like males when it comes to anything behind closed doors. But I love eric. So..... here I am. What should I do?
Hello and welcome to EC! Have you gone to a counselor to help delve into this problem at all? You might find the answer you're looking for by doing that.
To be honest, I don't have anybody I trust with this, let alone an adult. I live in a small rural area with few accepting people.