Honestly, I'm kind of uncomfortable still using the word trans, but that's the easiest way for people to understand. I just told my very best friend in the entire world that I don't feel 100% girl. She was supportive, but I felt like she didn't completely understand. I feel so emotionally empty about it. I wish she was more excited about it. She thought I meant I just want to dress like a guy, but what I meant was I want to be a guy. I told her what I was trying to say and she was still supportive, but I get the feeling she was kind of unsure. All of this just puts me back to square one where I'm not even sure myself! I don't know if she could ever get used to it. If my best friend (who is bisexual) can't even understand completely, then how am I supposed to feel about coming out to others. To add on to it: I went shopping for men's clothes and completely lost my nerve. I know that happens a lot the first time for trans people, but it's so irritating! I just want to be me without having to take all these extra steps! I started out walking through all the clothes and even looked through some, but I couldn't bring myself to buy anything as if the cashier would know what I was thinking. I' going to try again soon and actually do it. I have to; for me. If anything is going to progress, I have to take he first step.
You might have a look at this: http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gender-identity-expression/154401-she-thought-joke.html#8 and this: http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gende...53751-unsure-if-im-transsexual-not-ftm.html#5 (*hug*)(*hug*)
