Letter #5

This letter was wrote by BlueRose before he came out to his parents.

You can view the thread discussion here:
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/showthread.php?t=4136

You can read his report on coming out here:
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/showthread.php?t=4185

I am truly blessed to have you as my parents. You have been nothing but supportive to me for all of these years. I love you, and I hope that my actions reflect these sentiments. But for the past few years, I have not been completely honest with you, and I feel guilty every time I lie to you. This is very hard for me to do, and I hope you will forgive me for not telling you sooner, but most of all I hope you will understand some of what what I have been going through. Please know that I would never do anything to hurt you, and that I want nothing less than to make you happy and proud.

I am gay.

I have known I was gay since I was twelve, and I have not told anybody until this year. It has been very tough for me and I hope I will have your support through this. I never realized what a burden I was carrying until I came out to someone very close a few weeks ago. After that, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted and I was finally able to be myself, if only around that one person. I have wanted to come out to more people since then, but I wanted you to be first. I wanted to tell you myself, in my own words, and not risk you hearing secondhand.

I am the same person you have known all these years; nothing about me has changed. I am just finally being honest with you and I hope you will respect my decision. I am still your son, and I will always love you.

Love,
Your Son